Sometimes can u feels if what you do just spend your times??? Are they care with you??? Are they can say YES to what you want without comments??? Are they say THANKS to you after what you do to them???
There are soo many question in my mind. Sooo many!! I have good life before I become like now. What I have now ALL THAT NOT MINE but just accecories for my life. All in control. If they ask me "am I love them?" yes of course I Love Them alot. But what I do for them not enough. If I can be honest I just love people who never comments for my life and always suppports my life. Am I can be bad person after all I do still wrong ???? I think YES I can be bad person. Only one person always thinks what she/he did never wrong. Who that person SHE or HE ??? The answer SHE. I always trying to make her life be good therefor I working sooooo hard to make She pround with me. I give what she want. I never say NOT or comments anything for what she wants. But when I want this and that she always comments many things until I moody than keep quite with bad face. I cant make my life happy. If I feels happy its just for couple hours not more. Too many problems in my life. is She know what my problems?? is She know what I feels?? I thinks NOT. She just care about her self. What she want we r must do it if NOT she will angry and say YOU WILL CANT DO ANYTHING TO MAKE ME HAPPY IF I ALREADY DIED. I know KARMA will working soon in my life if I do soo bad for her. But am I can stand up always with this situations ??? Am I cant be stress will all this ??? I cant make my life happy so how can I think to married just for she happy when she never thinks about my life. TV broken in my room but she complaint about it. Not TV broken but just the remote broken but SHE SOO ANGRY like I do bad things. I buy her mobile but I thinks all that NOT ENOUGH. How to make her stop n make her thinks its all what she have already enough??? FUCK!! I hate this life. Now I still can be patients but oneday if i cant dont blame me if im be bad girl. Bcs its come not for my self but all that come from you. You make me like this but I will never angry with you. I cant pay all after what u do to my life.I cant be good girl for you. I cant always make ur dreams come true. I CAN'T. So If oneday I go away n never back PLEASE dont be sad.
