WHEN YOU CARE ABOUT THEM BUT FOR THEM ALL THAT NOT ENOUGH

Sometimes can u feels if what you do just spend your times??? Are they care with you??? Are they can say YES to what you want without comments??? Are they say THANKS to you after what you do to them???

There are soo many question in my mind. Sooo many!! I have good life before I become like now. What I have now ALL THAT NOT MINE but just accecories for my life. All in control. If they ask me "am I love them?" yes of course I Love Them alot. But what I do for them not enough. If I can be honest I just love people who never comments for my life and always suppports my life. Am I can be bad person after all I do still wrong ???? I think YES I can be bad person. Only one person always thinks what she/he did never wrong. Who that person SHE or HE ??? The answer SHE. I always trying to make her life be good therefor I working sooooo hard to make She pround with me. I give what she want. I never say NOT or comments anything for what she wants. But when I want this and that she always comments many things until I moody than keep quite with bad face. I cant make my life happy. If I feels happy its just for couple hours not more. Too many problems in my life. is She know what my problems?? is She know what I feels?? I thinks NOT. She just care about her self. What she want we r must do it if NOT she will angry and say YOU WILL CANT DO ANYTHING TO MAKE ME HAPPY IF I ALREADY DIED. I know KARMA will working soon in my life if I do soo bad for her. But am I can stand up always with this situations ??? Am I cant be stress will all this ??? I cant make my life happy so how can I think to married just for she happy when she never thinks about my life. TV broken in my room but she complaint about it. Not TV broken but just the remote broken but SHE SOO ANGRY like I do bad things. I buy her mobile but I thinks all that NOT ENOUGH. How to make her stop n make her thinks its all what she have already enough??? FUCK!! I hate this life. Now I still can be patients but oneday if i cant dont blame me if im be bad girl. Bcs its come not for my self but all that come from you. You make me like this but I will never angry with you. I cant pay all after what u do to my life.I cant be good girl for you. I cant always make ur dreams come true. I CAN'T. So If oneday I go away n never back PLEASE dont be sad.

SOMETIME LIFE CAN BE UNFAIR

are you sometime feel if this life unfair to ur life ??
are you sometime feel if this life fucking boring ??
are you sometime feel if this life really suck ??
are you sometime feel if this life really make you wanna died ??
are you sometime feel if this life just waste your time ??
are you sometime feel if this life not make you happy ??
are you sometime feel if you find money for other not to your self ??
and many more....

YES!! Sometimes I feels like that. My life unfair. Fucking boring. Suck. Make me wanna died. Waste my time. Unhappy. Working until overtime to save money but I can't use it to my self. Do you feels like that too before ?? If yes let's we are think again about it.

First let me share about my life when I get if this life unfair until I know if what I feels are wrong '-'

I start working on 2010. I was be administration. Move company to company just for find good salaries until I working at PT.xxx (my work now). Now I got nice position maybe very nice position cos I handle all work of finance. I start working here on 27 December'10 until now. Up and down my work sometimes make me wanna resign but parent, sister, n my love always give me support to not give up. Any conditions will have many problems. Life never be perfect or follow what we are wants. I was working sooo hard until sick just for got more money only for my parent n my future. Already 3 years I'm working here and maybe now people can say if I'm already success. If i can say, YES I'm already success to make my parent happy n can give them what they are wants. My parent years to years be older then me. I don't know how to make them happy. Sometime I just can make them angry with me with what I do. Now 2014 I save money to give my parent holiday. I give them tickets for going to China, vietnam, thailand, malaysia, n singapore. They are always going holiday on 2014 until change years to 2015 and this years i feel if my life unfair for first time. I was post some quote on my Instagram if I don't like with my life and my love give me support to never think like that. If all of you ask me why I can feels like that, I will lets all of you knws WHY!!. If say i have money? Yes I have. House? Yes. Car? Yes. Good Job? Yes. Good salaies? Yes. But all that never make me be arrogant person because I hate be arrogant. What I have only for helping people around me if they are need my help and for my family. Until now, I never think about my self n how my future. Never think for married too. Cos I just wanna safe my family n help them. But they are never think about my happiness. I'm working until overtime, follow them to holiday, driving, pay anything they are wants, n etc but they are not give me times for lets me be my self or going out with my friends 2-3 days. Only give me 10 hours but soo hard to give it to me. I'm sleepy, tired, and need holiday. I need my times. My times not only for them. am I wrong ?? maybe for them YES WRONG!!. What I have like not mine but theirs. I share and tolds all that with my baby. Only my baby can understand and my baby give me some words and make me feels calm. And now I just follow what I want without permitions. This is my life not their life. Maybe can unfair but not reason make me to give up. I must always move on n follow what I wants as long I still follow good rules.

So, for all of you who already read this blogs. I want all of you even this life really hards for you so try to never thinks if this life unfair. We are enter so we are will out. Life never be perfect but we are just can trying to make this life be good. Go ahead n keep follow good rules. Not reason to make us give up. Keep Move On!!!

The End :)

Thanks For My Baby :)*
Today, 23 Nov'15

TROYE SIVAN - HAPPY LITTLE PILL (COVER BY BRIA AND CHRISSY) LYRIC

"Happy Little Pill"

In the crowd alone
And every second passing reminds me I'm not whole
Bright lights and city sounds are ringing like a drone
Unknown, unknown

Oh, glazed eyes, empty hearts
Buying happy from shopping carts
Nothing but time to kill
Sipping life from bottles
Tight skin, bodyguards
Gucci down the boulevard
Cocaine, dollar bills
And...

My happy little pill
Take me away
Dry my eyes
Bring colour to my skies
My sweet little pill
Tame my hunger
Light within
Numb my skin

Like a rock I float
Sweat and conversations seep into my bones
Four walls are not enough
I'll take a dip into the unknown, unknown

Oh, glazed eyes, empty hearts
Buying happy from shopping carts
Nothing but time to kill
Sipping life from bottles
Tight skin, bodyguards
Gucci down the boulevard
Cocaine, dollar bills
And...

My happy little pill
Take me away
Dry my eyes
Bring colour to my skies
My sweet little pill
Tame my hunger
Light within
Numb my skin

Oh, glazed eyes, empty hearts
Buying happy from shopping carts
Nothing but time to kill
Sipping life from bottles
Tight skin, bodyguards
Gucci down the boulevard
Cocaine, dollar bills
And...

My happy little pill
Take me away
Dry my eyes
Bring colour to my skies
My sweet little pill
Tame my hunger
Light within
Numb my skin

 

MY LIFE CHANGE BECOUSE OF YOU

Heloo everybody..
How are you boys and girls? hope all of u always in gud health. Now I wanna share about who change my life and who always make me still keep strong and go ahead with what I wanna do. In my life not only my family always support me and make me feels happy. On May 2010 I still study n always online from my laptop for looking some article. I open one of my account n got notife n I meet someone in social media and that person looking so nice (sorry i cant say name of that person). After one month I talk with that person, I feels so happy n I dnt know why talk with that person suddenly I can smile. After that I always smile if talk with that person. Every day I always talk with that person. In that time I have bf n "bf". But tht person ok with it. Until one day i wanna looking that person on yahoo massager with video can but that person say if cam broken and i say "its oke let me show u how look am i" so i show my cam. After looking my cam suddenly stop talking mybe 15 minutes and that person not talk much after that. To many stories about this and i cant say it all here. On July 2010 I ask that person do you wanna be my love ?? that person quite and im still wait the answer. Time to time... day to day... i still wait the answer. until finally we r be couple. Years to years we r be couple. That person always support me from im study until im looking for job until im success with my job n many more. You change my life and thanks for all support u give for me. I will never forget about it. Much Love For You.

Thank you for looking my blog n read my blog. Next Time I will share with all of you guys about me n that person meet with full story.

-N.T.N-

RICH VS POOR

5 PERBEDAAN POLA PIKIR ORANG KAYA DAN ORANG MISKIN, YAITU :

1. Orang kaya memandang uang untuk membuat perusahaan supaya ada tambahan dana lebih sedangkan orang miskin berpikiran bila ada uang akan ditabung untuk masa depannya

2. Orang kaya selalu mengandalkan orang miskin dan tidak mau berusaha melakukannya sendiri sedangkan orang miskin selalu berusaha dengan tenaga dan pikirannya supaya apa yang mereka lakukan dapat cepat selesai

3. Orang kaya menggunakan untuk hidup mewah (beli mobil, motor, pesta, traveling, etc) sedangkan orang miskin menggunakan uang untuk membiayai hidup mereka yang serba kekurangan yaitu digunakan untuk membeli makanan, biaya sekolah, biaya tempat tinggal, dan ditabung untuk masa depan

4. Orang kaya selalu memandang rendah orang miskin tanpa memikirkan perasaan mereka sedangkan orang miskin selalu menghormati semua orang yang mereka kenal dan mereka berusaha untuk tidak salah berbicara

5. Orang kaya selalu mengganggap diri mereka benar sedangkan orang miskin selalu dianggap salah

Perbedaan diatas ini merupakan hasil interview saya dengan beberapa orang miskin yang ada didaerah sekitar kota saya dan interview dengan beberapa boss perusahaan yang saya kenal di kantor saya. Semua orang bebas mau berbicara apa saja dan bebas apa yang mereka mau lakukan, namun tidak semua orang miskin mau selalu dianggap salah dan selalu direndahin harga dirinya. Berdasarkan hasil interview yang saya lakukan 80% orang kaya selalu mengganggap orang miskin sebelah mata dan 20% oarng kaya memandang orang miskin teman mereka.

BERIKUT INI ADALAH 5 HAL YANG DIBENCI ORANG MISKIN VS ORANG KAYA, YAITU :

#5 Hal yang dibenci orang miskin kepada orang kaya :
-Arogan
-Sombong
-Tidak mau dianggap salah
-Selalu mengandalkan orang
-Selalu hura-hura

#5 Hal yang dibenci orang kaya kepada orang miskin :
-Bila kerja selalu minta gaji lebih
-Kerjanya lambat
-Tidak bisa hidup bersih
-Susah untuk diberikan pengarahan
-Bila gaji telat dibayar ujung-ujungnya demo


Hidup ini memang tidak sempurna, terkadang kita berpikiran kalau Tuhan tidak adil terhadap hidup ini. Namun dari situlah kita pasti akan mendapatkan hikmahNya. Kesabaran, tekun, dan selalu berdoa adalah hal yang penting dalam hidup ini. Saya menulis blog ini Poor VS Rich bukan untuk menyindir ataupun hal negatif lainnya, namun hanya untuk sekedar berbagi. Karena Poor VS Rich adalah permasalahan yang kita hadapi setia hari atau yang selalu kita lihat dan kita rasakan dalam kehidupan ini. Pepatah mengatakan TIDAK SELAMANYA ORANG KAYA SELALU BERADA DIATAS DAN TIDAK SELAMANYA ORANG MISKIN SELALU BERADA DIBAWAH KARENA RODA DUNIA SELALU BERPUTAR TANPA HENTI. Itulah pepatah yang harus terus kita pegang. Semua itu juga harus dibantu dengan kesabaran, ketekunan, tata bicara yang baik, dan terus berdoa.

Semoga blog ini dapat berguna untuk semua para pembaca blog saya. Saya minta maaf bila ada kata-kata yang salah dan bersifat negatif untuk para pembaca. Sekian untuk Blog saya hari ini. Atas perhatiannya saya mengucapkan terima kasih.

Best Regrads,

- N.T.N -

#SUPPORTPOORPEOPLEINTHEWORLD

LOVE IS LOVE

Stay in this love so you must feels about love. But love have 3 different love and that love are girl love boy, girl love girl, and boy love boy. If we are love with family (parent, sister, brother, grandma, grandpa, youngersis, youngbro, niece, nephew, auntie, ect) its normal. Do you already falling in love with someone to stay in ur life ? So many people in this world have love. If we are see couple boy and girl kissing and hugging in public area so its normal. But if we are see couple boy and boy or girl and girl kissing and hugging in public area so not all people thinking its normal. For asian people its not normal specialy for Indonesian. They are think if that love not normal, sick, and many reason why they think that is not true love. Now we came back again with what we are feels. Others people cant punished with someone who falling in love, with who we are falling in love its still calling with LOVE. Love is Love no matter with who we are falling in love. I always support who have love. Nobody can punish it. Love is Love and all that about feeling. Follow your heart if you think that feeling can make you feels happy and smiling. So dont hate lesbian and gay becouse they are still have felling. Make a freedome, peace, and NOH8. 

BREAKING UP

Permasalahan dalam hidup tidak hanya datang dari masalah pekerjaan atau pun dari orang lain. Permasalahan terkadang muncul dari diri kita sendiri. Dimana yang tadinya hanya permasalahn kecil namun jadi besar tapi juga ada yang besar semakin besar. Salah satu masalah yang bisa membuat hidup kita hancur adalah masalah percintaan. Percintaan bisa membuat orang terlihat bodoh, gila, bahkan rela mati bila kehilangan cinta tersebut. Namun ada juga yang mengambil hikmah dari permasalahan itu dan dijadikan pengalaman atau perlajaran dalam hidup ini. Cinta dan kasih sayang tidak hanya datang dari pasangan kita namun bisa datang dari orangtua, saudara, teman, bahkam orang-orang disekitar kita. Perpisahan bukan satu-satunya masalah yang mengharuskam kita terus bersedih. Namun perpisahan bisa membuat kita lebih bersikap dewasa. Perpisahan bukan mengharuskam kita menjadi musuh namun bisa membuat kita lebih baik dari sebelumnya. Breaking up its no one solution for finish the problems but for make us be more strong for this life.